Is it me or just the guy I met.

May be its me - not having had a relation for so long or just not having had time to look and pursue.

But having decided to slow down from work, from minting money from the business of life, I have suddenly started yearning for company for some one to wake up with, some one to go to the nights at art gallery some one to sit with on the beach at night .. blah blah blah

This plus the feeling from the dancing at the club without being approached soon after I turned 32, seems to have hit the nail a bit too deep, pushing me to do things a bit too swiftly a tad too fast.

I met this guy online the profile didn't have hook up in "Looking for" and we talked and talked. He had a career, was Latino, in shape and seemed to have a good heart.On our first face to face date, we met to watch a movie at his place instead, ended up making out before the movie actually started. Amazing chemistry, total match so here I go as if time travelled back 9 years , I fell again and fell pretty bad - texts back and forth, in a week I am making him a spicy Indian broth for his bad cold, offering him to come help with his home while he is sick.

Week 4 - I started floating in my dream world listening to Besame mucho over and over again, and then my new found piece of sunshine got laid off!!! Oh the times we live in!!
Its tough for anybody to come face to face with loosing something such big part of our existence. I was being supportive, collecting references etc etc finally we go out our only 3rd date, to a club.
We drank, danced and in one of those moments, on the dance floor he whispered in a voice loud enough to be heard in the music , "I don't know what I'd do without you. You are so there when I need you". He said he loved me and kissed - I felt like this is it - this is dream come true and responded with a equally passionate response. A moment later, something happened and he said he was going to get our drinks and took a while to return, only to find him with someone else at another corner of the club. He saw me watching him(me having gone looking out for him wondering if he again sat somewhere worrying), came to me and asked me out of the blue "Do you want to own me" ?!!! staring right into my face!

I was really clue less with "What ?" boomeranging in my head followed by WTH WTF once I realised what he had said. I didn't know what to say!! What made him say that?I was just being there being supportive but not without expectations. Did he realise he was letting go to be of somebody when in reality he wanted to be single have fun? Did he realise he was falling for some one he didn't think was his type? worst, did he think I had seduced him to the point of saying what he said to me?Was he just too drunk?

I wrote to him anyway as if nothing had happened and he replied saying it was good as long as it lasted but its not meant to be!!!

There ends my first quick affair of my thirties!! My short lived fairy tale love story!

Friend of mine said I am too available! (Is he actually saying am desperate?). Another said I just need to meet more people third one said I need to slow down and stop doing too much too early.

I just felt the guy caught himself off guard doing what he might not have prepared himself for.
But there's a way to say one is not ready. Anyway I am still worrying about it- oh no not about him just about the whole thing of where did I go wrong? Whats the right way to do it?

As strangers reading a blog, I believe you guys can give honest opinions.
You don't have the anxiety to be politically right, or fear of confronting me!:)